Well I’m back from the wedding a lil over a week now and it was amazing. interesting though cause I dont come from a rich family but from the looks of the wedding you wouldnt know that- my cousin had an amazing five day extravaganza that was included with amazing food which none was healthy, cute guys living hundreds of miles away, and a broken computer. I had such a great time but when i came home and weighed myself- well lets just say i had to stay strong for the last week to get back down the five pounds gained!!! Something that i was not looking forward to going into the wedding was seeing family that has always coined me the ‘fat one’ and me not knowing how they would react to the weightloss. To start it off my aunt who has always been the one that made small comments or looks about my weight in the past cried when i saw her, she said she was proud and excited for me which was amazing and something that oddly i needed to hear. Then as the weekend was going on, my mom told me all the family and even strangers that were at the wedding were making comments about how beautiful i was and i was shocked- i mean- me, beautiful?!? not a concept im used to hearing. Ive been told in the past that i had a pretty face or nice smile, but never beautiful (period). so this is taking some getting used to- will i ever feel beautiful or worthy of the guys that flirt with me? or honk their cars at me? will i always look behind me to see who they are looking at or acknowledging???
on another subject- during the wedding weekend i was in the hotel room with my sister and cousin when i threw a hardback book at my sister to look at something and well if you knew my sister you would know that was a big mistake because she cowars whenever anything is thrown in her general direction. So when throwing the book it hit my laptop- brand new, graduation gift that i love so much- the book hit my laptop and broke two keys on my keyboard!!! the ‘k’ and ‘j’ were destroyed- pieces of metal that hold the key in were broken off and geek squad informed me that it would be three weeks till i have my computer back!!!! what to do?!?!?! so here i am three days in and trying to make it without my computer and anticipating midterms in grad school! lots of love- Amanda
